I wish

I could float away,
I wish I could melt away,
I am with people most of the time
But I feel so alone.

I love my best friend so much,
I am closer to her than anybody else I know
But she wouldn't understand.
She can't.
Even if she wanted to.

Sometimes I wish I could have someone,
To talk to, to understand.
But other times, I'm glad no-one does.

I don't deserve anybodies time,
Or energy,
Or understanding,
Or anything.

I love being alone
I hate being lonely

I love that no-one knows
I hate that no-one understands

I love how I can keep secrets
I hate the liar I have become

All I'm really sure about is that I love each and every one of you.

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