Tuesday, 6 December 2011

But I was doing so well...

Last week was good, I barely ate anything, I lost 2Ibs in ONE day! I got a new low weight!! I weighed 105.5Ibs!

Then I fucked it up. Again.
I don't know what I weigh now, I'm too frightened to even look.

Purging used to come so easy, I used to love the feeling of getting rid of all my sins, but now I can't sum up the energy to even try.

I don't want to be fat for Christmas.
I am always fat at Christmas.

I want the hunger highs again.
I wouldn't just enjoy them
I'd be fucking delirious with them.

Thanks for the comments.
Thank you so much


  1. Please remember that no matter how disappointed you are in yourself that you are beatiful, kind thoughtful, caring, interesting and amazing.
    You won't be fat at Christmas darling.
    I love you.

  2. i can relate im always fat at xmas :( just once i wanna be looking how I want for new years

  3. Honey, I bet if you eat completely healthy for a few days you'll be at that low weight again and if you keep it up you will not be fat anytime soon. Just stop this and don't make yourself feel worse.

    Keep up the positive thoughts, love.

  4. Don't weigh for awhile if it's going to make you upset, that will do more harm than good, and I'm sure whatever you did couldn't possibly have done that much damage.