It still amazes me...

That you care enough about me to say such lovely things.....

It feels like Christmas. I put the Christmas tree up last night. And it has been snowing on and off since Sunday night. I have been making Christmas decorations with my nanna and little cousin for the past two weeks. Christmas presents are, well non-existent at the minute actually. Well I have my sister sorted for Christmas.

I have annoying people who have birthdays in December. My nanna's tomorrow, my best friends on Saturday, my dad on the 19th and my sister on 23rd. So I have birthdays to buy for as well.

I do love Christmas, I really do. I'm a big child.

This will be my first Christmas as an adult.

I will be one of those people though, who only grows older in numbers.

I will be young forever.

I wish I didn't have to eat again.

I can eat everything or nothing.

There are no inbetweens with me.

So tomorrow I will eat nothing.

I will see 105.5 again, by Monday.

I will weigh myself in the morning, so I know how much I've to lose.

I haven't cut since the last time I posted about doing it, but I've noticed that I get an urge to cut when I'm healing, when it looks like the little marks might fade away. I don't have any intentions of cutting anytime soon. The last time was obviously a bit deeper because the marks are clearly visible.

Why can I not them fade away?

Thank you all again for being so wonderful

xo