I go back to college on Tuesday, then I have two weeks until I finish. Like forever. TWO FUCKING WEEKS! What the fuck am I meant to do with two shitty bollocking weeks - four months worth of assignments and coursework in two fucking weeks!
Sorry I'm venting - again.
I'm bricking it, I really am. I have no excuse for not doing the coursework I just can't be bothered. Like I've told myself, just do it - yes it's boring but it's only for a while then you'll be done - blah blah blah
But christ I'm just so lazy.
It really is the most boring course anyone ever thought up ever - I have no idea what possessed me to do it in the first place.
Anyone thinking of a business course?? Don't fucking do it!!
I'm sorry, I'm just really shitting myself because this can work out 1 of 2 ways:
1)I somehow manage to pull it out of my arse and actually pass this course, then in two weeks I'm finished and then I have to find a job - a proper full time grown up job
2)I completely fuck it up, fail miserably, waste two years of my life, then have to find a job with 4 shitty GCSE's and nothing else.
I'm pretty buggered either way I think.
There are very, very few jobs around me right now - I am quite limited to where I can look for work because I live in a wee village and there are never any jobs here, so the only other place I can look is in town, because then at least theres buses and stuff, because I can't really rely on people for lifts all the time either.
So that leaves me pretty limited.
I'm fucked I mean I wouldn't hire me to do anything -
I have four GCSE's: English, Home Economics, and a double for ICT, a pass grade for my BTEC Business (If I'm lucky) and a key skill in maths (if I'm lucky)
oh and one months work experience for my whole 18 years of being alive.
Sorry, sorry, sorry - I'm just having a mini freak out.
Oh christ I am actually fucked