This explains it better than I ever could...

(This puts perfectly into words the relationship I feel I have with myself and this thing in my head)

I put on my smile but no, no, no. 

I put on my smile but no, no, no. 

May as well be dead, may as well be gone  

You'd pretend like I am the one, 

You'd pretend like I am the one 

I make you feel ugly, make you feel ugly 

I make you feel ugly make you feel like me  

I've seen the way she's looking at you, I've never encountered this 

This jealousy that's taken over, I should have harnessed it 

I've lost control, I'm hungry for you, it's led me down this path 

That only leads me to disaster  

And I get a sick feeling from below, 

oh I get a sick feeling from below 

Emerald eyes aflame, emerald eyes aflame  

Want to ask - but do I want to know? 

Want to ask - but do I want to know? 

Is she better than me, is she better than me? 

Is she better than me, is she amazing?  

I've seen the way she's looking at you, I've never encountered this 

This jealousy that's taken over, I should have harnessed it 

I've lost control, I'm hungry for you, it's led me down this path 

That only leads me to disaster  

Have you seen the way I'm looking at you, I've never encountered this 

This type of pain that's taken over, I've lost control of it 

I'm still in love, I'm hungry for you, and it's not letting go 

Just tell me things get better from here

Have you seen the way I'm looking at you, I've never encountered this

This jealousy that's taken over, I should have, I should have harnessed it

I'm still in love and I'm hungry for you, but it's not letting go

Just tell me things get better from here

Just tell me things get better from here

Just tell me things get better from here

(Ella Edmondson - Hunger)