Wednesday, 9 November 2011

Miss Alisha and Lucy's Shadow...

Don't really know what to say other than thank - you. Thank you so much for caring.

That's still a big thing about blogger that I can't seem to get my head around, the fact that you care. About me.

I did cut.

But it's not that bad. I have never been a deep cutter, just enough to draw blood and feel it. I do it on my thigh. No-one ever sees my legs, even before the scars.
I do have scars and it's plain to see how they were caused, but they don't bother me that much, because I'm the only who sees them.

Although they have been there for a while, I don't think I'll have them for life.

I feel more positive today, I lost a pound from yesterday. I weighed myself about half an hour ago before I came up to bed and was still the same as this morning, which is amazing! I gained nothing all day, so hopefully I will get another good loss tomorrow.

I'm sorry Lucy and Alisha, but know that I'm only doing visual damage, and that will be the last time for a while.

Thank you again for caring.

And Alisha, please do what you can to keep the eating disorder out of your life, please don't let it creep back in.


  1. I'm so scared, Rachel. I don't know what to do. I can't stop it. I don't want it to be this way, I don't want to get sick again, but something has been triggered in my mind. I will not starve myself. I will do my best to stay healthy. I will fight. It is going to be so so hard. But I will fight. You need to fight, too. Every time you get that urge to cut, think about all of us. Remember that you are fighting this battle and you are fighting to win.

  2. It's because you're a beautiful and lovely person.
    You deserve to be cared for and I don't want you to forget that we are here for you and do think about you.
    I know how addictive it is but please try not to cut again, I worry for you lovely.
    I'm glad you do feel more positive, I hope it stays that way.
    Love Anafly

  3. Shut up and reconsider your impression of yourself. We care because you deserved to be cared for. No matter what there is no such thing as disappointment in here. We are all sisters and brothers.
    I love you from the bottom of my heart.
    Take good care of your beautiful mind, body and soul

  4. Whenever you feel really down, think about all the good advice you're always giving me. You're such a supportive and loving person, and maybe your own advice can help you aswell.
    You are so so beautiful, we all agree on that.
    Treat yourself like you'd treat any of us. We all matter, that's the important thing.

    I really love you and I am sending you all my strenght.