Thursday, 3 November 2011

Though it won't be today, someday I'll hope again...

I hate to say it again, but sorry.

I don't know why I always apologise but it's just something I do.

And thanks...again.

You are all truly wonderful!

I wish I could figure myself out, I really do.

I feel... well actually it doesn't matter what I feel because I 'feel'.

I think it has passed and left me alone for another little while.

I don't know why I get my 'sad times' but for now, I don't feel quite so, not there. When I get sad I feel like the last tiny part of me is being taken away, like my mind is all but gone.

Then I wake up and for no apparent reason, 'I' come back. I am allowed back.

I don't know if you can tell or not but this post is positive.

I have managed since Monday to eat a little bit less than the day before, which I'm quite happy about, and I have lost weight since Monday. Which I am also happy about.

I have set myself a weekly goal for the rest of November to lose 2Ibs every week. Although this is less than I would like, there is nothing to say I can't lose more, I just want to make goals that I can stick to.

So by the end of November I aim to weigh 99Ibs.

I hope to be able to comment again, and be able to write positive words.
I'm sorry again for being so miserable, you are all incredible and I feel so very lucky to be part of this little community.
I love you,
And I really do.


  1. This is beautiful.
    Take care, darling.

  2. so glad to hear you're doing better!

  3. 2 lbs a week is totally reasonable, and I am pretty sure you will achieve it!
    I'm so happy to hear that you're doing better, honey!

    It will all get better, one step at a time!
    Loads of love to you,

  4. Thank you for your comment, it was so touching :)

    You can definitely stick to this plan. It's so great to hear that you are feeling better.

    That picture is adorable, and so are you :)

    have an amazing weekend darling <3

  5. I love you and I care deeply about you, even though i have never met you. I will always be here, no matter what.

  6. I am back and your words touch me more than ever.
    I find that I can relate to your words and your feelings.
    You are so so so lovely and we're all here for you.
    Love, Anafly,