Tuesday 8 November 2011

Well I hope there's someone out who can bring me back to you...

I was 3.4Ibs lighter on Friday than I am today, Tuesday.

And I can feel every ounce.
And it disgusts me, more than I can even put into words.

My mind is fucking with me, it embeds things that I know cannot be possibly true, but it makes me believe them. But they are not even lies about my body. They are lies that I would give anything to be true.

So sometimes I let myself believe them, when I get really sad. I will let myself escape in them.

So now I must go and cut into my leg to try and distinguish weather I actually am real or not...
x
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2 comments:

  1. Lucy's Shadow9 November 2011 at 01:43

    please don't hurt yourself that way honey!
    take a freezing shower if you need to hurt yourself.. but don't give yourself scars!
    you're lovely
    you don't deserve pain

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  2. miss9 November 2011 at 11:05

    Don't hurt yourself! It isn't that bad! You can EASILY lose those 3.4 lb. EASILY. The way I see it, you don't need more than one form of self-destruction, if any at all. Don't cut yourself, darling. It won't make you any more pretty. Stay strong, my love. I am here for you, if you ever need someone.
    xx

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