I'm sorry for all my ranting lately, I don't mean to be such a bore and it stills amazes me that you all take the time to read and comment. I like that about here, you all care. I don't write here in order to get comments or sympathy I really don't. I just like it here, it's like a haven, I can write what I want and I never get judged for it.

Even though I don't expect you to read or comment, I'm so very grateful that you do.

It makes me feel better knowing that you all understand. I hurts me as well though to know that there are others suffering the same as me.

I'm so very glad for this place and for all of you. I love having somewhere to come and just be. You all keep me going.

I'm sorry I'm not commenting at the minute, but the way I am now I have nothing to say really, I have no words of comfort and I don't want to say things just for the sake of it. When I write comments, I really mean what I write, but I don't feel anything right now so anything I would say to any of you in comments would feel like a lie.

I bore myself, with all my sad writing I really do and if I bore you, none of you ever let it be known. Thank you for that.

It's 4.50pm here and I am yet to eat, lets hope it stays that way.

80 calories of coffee, 5 calories of juice and 2 pro plus is what I have ingested today.

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