You are beautiful inside and out. Don't let numbers control you. There are so many better things in life to focus on, so embrace this beautiful world! "
Anonymous, left me this comment a few posts ago, but I've just come across it now.
I just wanted to say to them, if you are reading, thank you. Thank you for telling me I'm beautiful, even though it is impossible for me to believe it, it really means the world that someone think that of me. I wish I could stop numbers controlling me, I mean I hate numbers I have dyscallula, a barrier that stops me being able to do any slightly strenuous (sp??Idk) maths, like I can't even divide, but "this" had dragged me into a world full of numbers and I have to look at the numbers on the scale every morning, and count calories thoughout the day, and count how many of them I have burnt. Inches and centimetres and pounds and stones and calories and minutes and hours, they fill my head all day every day.
I know there are so many beautiful wonderful and magical things in this world, and I know better than anyone that I am selfish for being this way. Sometimes I wish I could make it disappear, but most of the time I could not imagine myself "normal" and as sad as it may sound, most of the time I don't want to, this is a part of me, this is who I am. I don't want to stop, because I know I would feel lost without it.
Oh my heart
5 days ago