Wednesday, 19 May 2010

Intake today: 1173
Why oh why am I always above? I think I have been getting a bit disheartened by my 3 days of being over 1000, because this evening I did something I haven't done in a very long time:

I purged. I don't know why but in a way I sorted of wanted to, because I was annoyed at myself, it took about 6 attempts and even at that I only got up a very small amount. It's strange I never disliked purging, I used to do it about 3 times a month around 3 years ago, but I would plan it, I would eat mashed potato, or rice, or something that was easy to get up, because I wanted to be sick. I still to this day have no reason why.

I was very tempted not to go for my walk today, but I did, then went to sleep for a few hours when I got back, which I think is the only reason my intake wasn't a lot higher.

My friend made me lunch, Chicken dippers and chips. Uh. I ate it and thought well at least it might fill me for a while, but I was hungry for the rest of the day. Usually I eat nothing until about 3 or 4 and I'm fine the rest of the day, I think I should continue with this.

Violet: Yes you really would make a good gangsta :) I'm glad I have pleased you with my slight fear of Snape.

Erin: If you are reading this, I just wanted to say that I have tried to comment on your two previous posts but they is no link to get to you comments, I don't know whether it is the fault of blogspot, your computer or mine, but I just wanted to let you know I'm still reading and will comment again as soon as I can.

Anyways I must sleep because I am knackered. Good night everyone


  1. im glad that you went for a walk, it seems like something you really enjoy.
    sweet sweet dreams

  2. Don't be disheartened! There's always tomorrow, to start fresh. :)

  3. I go over 1000 daily. :(

  4. night! im guna email u. i did really well today :) i thrt of u everytime i wanted to eat, ur an angel :D

  5. aaahh the eternal love/hate relationship we have with purging!
    Good luck honey